Yay. My life is fucked.

[andius]

Well I have a lot of problems to deal with besides this one, but this one is on top of my list. Some of my other problems include a past of heavy drug use, and I was an alcoholic untill I got help with that.

The main problem is that I can\'t just say fuck off and ride into the sunset with the girl on the back of my horse. We are only fifteen, and as much as most teenagers seem to think they can survive without their parents almost all of us need them.

I became depressed around age 9, so this is nothing new to me, but its so fucking tiring, day in day out..the mood swings, the anger, hatred...it all takes its toll. Not to mention the fucking insomnia which has bothered me for years, and is now reaching a critical point.

I was just barely hanging on, now her mom took away what little rope I had. Suicide is in my thoughts all of the time now, but I try to keep them away...I can\'t leave her, I still love her and thats what keeps me alive, just barely.